I honestly feel like life is going at super speed right now haha I am sooo sorry for the lack of updates but here’s the coles notes

• Still doing prep. I was stuck for a bit but it’s finally moved and I feel like I see progress
• Still training Brandie for the OPA show at the end of the month. She’s killing it and I have no doubt will place
• I left LA Fitness and am now full time at my own company, WonderFit Inc. I have a solid schedule with 3 girls doing competition prep
• I’m still running German Volume but I’ve modified it a bit to work on my weaknesses (hamstrings, glutes, lats and delts)
• Food and water has been perfect
• Going to a cottage next weekend with some girls
• Still considering myself unavailable in terms of dating. This won’t be changing any time soon
• I’ve been slacking on cardio. HARD.

Holy crap today was crazy.

In fact, this whole week was crazy. My schedule is packed from 6 or 7am til at the earliest 11pm. Between my box gym job, my own WonderFit clients, training Brandie for provincials and my own competition prep, I feel like my whole day is planned to a T in 15 minute increments

Food was great today except I need to get more fat in and still have my shake. Water was fabulous but I have a super bad headache so sleep should come soon.

After I eat

And make tomorrow’s food

And get my workout planned.

Yay

I had a great back workout

I had my favourite clients

I had a great talk with Luke

I had all my food for once!

I felt pretty damn hot

2 weeks ago I weighed in at 146.2

1 week ago I weighed in at 148.4

Yesterday I weighed in at 149.6

Today…150.4

I’ve had one cheat meal and a regular workout schedule as well as food. I hit 1400-1600 cal per day, keep my carbs low and do everything that I have always done when cutting.

Except sleep and relax.

I’m trying very hard to keep my emotions and mental stress in check but I can’t manage it and it’s showing on the scale.

I can feel myself retaining fluid and I’m constantly exhausted.

I know I need to sleep but I wake up constantly and it’s really frustrating.

I wish I could turn my emotions off and not think about him and miss him.

The more I try to focus, the worse I end up doing.

I need to sleep. I need him to fix things.

[Edit] Somehow, my body image is still getting better every day

I had…

A muffin
Thai food
Cream in my coffee

Do I care about my calories? Nope

But I feel like shit consuming dairy and gluten. Huge regret

I spent the day with my mama. We went shopping and got dinner

Now i must dye my hair and then we shall watch Eat, Pray, Love while I plan my week

Also. Psychic? Wow. My heart. It feels good.

Currently I weight train 5 times a week and do cardio maybe…2?

The problem is I go into the gym, pick legs, back, chest or shoulders and just go til failure.

I need a routine. I need to sit down and plan better *sighs*

I tell ALLLL my clients that to see results they need a consistent routine that they document.

Guess who got a pretty new book to document her workouts in? Time to plan and follow routine.

Also. I need to deadlift. I miss it.

Insomnia: 7
Marta: 0

I am sooo sleepy. I’ve lived off of protein today but I think I need carbs if I’m going to make it through the day and my workout…

Also…wait til you see my wicked new food container.

Expect to be jealous :)

I had a half assed workout

I did not eat enough

I felt crappy

I spent time shopping with my mama

I decided it’s the last day that I spend emotionally and mentally drained from being upset and sad.

Yum